Living the Strange Life

Re: Everyone Wants A Big Dick Goth Boyfriend

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Re: Everyone Wants A Big Dick Goth Boyfriend

Hi. It’s been awhile. How are you? How’s the family? You see I’m only stopping by to comment on a recent piece titled “Why Everyone Wants a Big Dick Goth Boyfriend”. I know. I think there’s a larger conversation to be had here. I have coffee. https://melmagazine.com/en-us/story/big-dick-goth-boyfriend-meme?fbclid=IwAR3tuX2V42OHccd2SSW2N9ragnYiVwlergB2kyLIzNbvsO-6WI86SZlS1pUMuch like the manic pixie dream girl trope, big tiddy goth girlfriend is also poisitioned to be of service to their counterpart. I think this stems from the aftermath of toxic positivity becoming more readily seen as toxic in society as a whole and the expectation that women are the ones who hold the...

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CAGES DTLA: A Review

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(Originally published November 8th, 2019) Currently in its preview stage, Cages by Woolf and the Wondershow is an experience that's hard to explain because it offers so much. The general story, for those being invited into the world Anhedonia, is that its citizens aren't allowed to feel their feelings. It's a dark, grey scale world where everyone's hearts are locked away in cages. And I'm sure, you can imagine where the story goes from there, but I assure you it's so much more than getting from this point A to the obvious point B. It's not going to even remotely...

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How I Embraced My Trauma

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Lock down has been an interesting experience. The novelty of "taking a break" since a good portion of us are out of work has long since worn off. Some of us may find ourselves in familiar situations, like being isolated to this extent echos how we were in our yesteryears. Some of us further still can hear the echos of "get over it" and "move on" and you wish you could separate the now you from the memories woven alongside your veins of the you who survived in this familiar situation...but you can't. Inability to "let go" becomes just one...

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When You Hurt Me, You Hurt Yourself

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When You Hurt Me, You Hurt Yourself

Once upon a time, I found myself shouting on the phone in a parking lot in Hollywood. The person on the other side of this conversation had blown up my phone with messages since 11AM and it was now 3 in the afternoon. “Why are you still texting me, Sean? I told you I was done, that I was sorry. Stop this.” I shouted, finally losing that eerie calm people get when they are mad but don’t want to show it. Calm people win arguments, right? And he told me why, losing his eerie calm, in great detail, at the...

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I am not my anxiety.

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I am not my anxiety.

This has come up several times in the last few months and it's starting to wear me out. I am not my anxiety.  It's strange to hear it brought up in conversations: "You have anxiety you can't do this." "How could you ever do that, don't you have anxiety?" or "I don't believe you have anxiety." I've had it my whole life, my anxiety disorder and I are in a deeply committed relationship. When I was a teenager, a point in my life where success was defined by how well you could assimilate into whatever status quo was (and honey,...

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